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this week is so very uneventful....... soo boring

i had this kind of depression.... but its not really a depression since i have no reason to be depressed about...
its just that i feel so lazy this days........ lazy in everything... i don't know i just want to pass my time looking at nothing..
even with eating... even though when i feel hungry, i don't feel like eating... i eat only a few bites then i don't feel like eating anymore...
its makes me wonder how the other girls have troubles slimming down... when i find it hard to gain a few weights... they should ask me how to do it.. all you need to do is not to have breakfast.. eat 2 bananas at lunch and a cup of rice at dinner (because thats what i do today.. Pssssshhhh)... i'm not always like this, only now..
even my friend tried to temp me with a whole bar of toblerone... i got excited at first.. then after staring at it for a few seconds, i don't want it anymore.. this is the time that i got troubled... the first time i have to say no to chocolates....... gahhhhh...
my friend tells me that maybe im pregnant... to which i reply is that its impossible, since im planning to die a virgin

maybe all i need is motivation?? or is this kind of disease??? i really don't know..

the people at the house went to the mall today, they want me to come too but since i feel really lazy nowadays.. i decline thats how boring my life is

since they're gone... i finally have time to write the next chap of my fic.... in which i spend two hours staring at the paper.. in those two hours i chided myself for making my first fic really long and really complicated..
and then just when i started to write... my relatives returns.... pssshhh now i really don't have time to write again..
and when i looked back to what i wrote.. i'm not satisfied and i plan to rewrite it again... psssshhhhhhh

ohh.. before that i met my high school gay friend... and we went to a net cafe.. because i want to do something and my relatives is using our laptop again...
it surprised me to know that he's a big koki teppei fan.... and so i show him some videos of ryo, yamapi and tegoshi..
his comment is:
to ryo: has a cool soothing voice
to yamapi: he dances very great... and have a great body
to tegoshi: he looks like a girl ^_^ and have a great voice..

and he also said that they always roll their hips hahahahahahahahaha LOL

and the next thing i know... he's searching tegoshi yuya in his computer.. i'm planning to make him a yamapi fan.. not tegoshi's pssshhhh

i show him my fic too.. im really shy at first because he knows me... but grace told him about it the other day and he want to see it.. so yeah... gahhhhhh

what really makes me happy now is NewS they always do... the MS appearance and the DVD leakage..
i love the MS perf, it is really funny and amusing... and im happy to see that they look like they enjoy the perf too..
Tegoshi and Yamapi's hair there.... is soooo much love

and the DVD... its the first time i see yamapi like that... its really cute.. eventhough i hate his hair there..
and shige is soo much fail and win at the same time
tegoshi's kissy face is... gahhhh.. *dies and is already in heaven*

that all for now....
for this week...